I am so disgusted. So disgusted.

Emotional Political Rant.

I am not really sure what it is really, I guess. 

I am disgusted with politics right now. I am disgusted with humanity right now. 

I feel very helpless at the same time. 

I feel like I’m watching the premise of a book, or a wierd post-apocalyptic dream play out on my TV and on the computer screen.

Who are these people? Where do they live? Do they represent me? 

Where does Newt Gingrich get off? Where does Romney or Paul? Hell, what gives Obama the right to sign a bill into place that will let him or his predecessor decide who can be detained indefinitely, regardless of what is the actual truth? Why do we elevate these people to God-Like statuses and treat them like angels who can’t fuck up, who aren’t human, who will fuck up and who will take bribes and listen to the money? 

Ugh. I like want to go apologize to the ocean and to the earth, because I think I’m realizing my insignificance in helping us realize anything about us and our impact. There are just too many people with poor intentions guiding people with good intentions. 

Creating Hate. 

It doesn’t get better, it just gets a lot more fucking complicated. 

I hate that I watch people sit and make decisions for me about my future. Talk shit about me. Talk about how I’m fucked up and how I’m going down the wrong path and how I will destroy society. And to know that people I love(d) still think that. It’s just a lot to handle right now. Maybe I just need to get away for a bit. 

I really just want to be on Hawaii or in Big Sur, studying birds or something. I don’t know.