It's Simple.

“the angel of death came to david’s room
the angel of death came to david’s room
the angel of death came to david’s room
he said, “friend, it’s time to go”’

angel, no, i think you’ve come too soon
angel, no, i think you’ve come too soon
angel, no, i think you’ve come too soon
it’s not my time to go

sorry friend, now put your hand in mine
i’m sorry friend, now put your hand in mine
but good angel, don’t i get a warning sign
before it’s my time to go?

come now david, where’s your grandma gone?
come now david, where’s your grandpa gone?
come now david, where’s your grandma gone?
their time came to go

but i slew goliath with the sling and stone
i slew goliath with the sling and stone
i slew goliath with the sling and stone
it’s not my time to go

he’ll be waiting for you when we get back home
he’ll be waiting for you when we get back home
he’ll be waiting for you when we get back home
it’s time, it’s time to go

come now david, where’s your momma gone?
come now david, where’ve your uncles gone?
come now david, where’ve your aunts all gone?
their time came to go

can i tell solomon the things i’ve learned?
can i tell solomon the things i’ve learned? 
i’m sorry, friend, that’s none of my concern
it’s time, it’s time to go

come now david where’s uriah gone?
stranded on the battlefield,
the troops withdrawn
come now david, where’s uriah gone?
his time came to go

come now david, where’s bathsheba gone?
and where’ve your binoculars and rooftop gone?
the unexpected baby from the bath night gone?
their time came to go

come now david, where’s everybody goin’?”

I don’t know what to think. About anything.

I don’t know what to think about my singleness.

I don’t know what to think about next summer.

I don’t know what to think about my current state.

I don’t know what to think about still being sick.

I don’t know what to think about school.

I don’t know what to think about not having my books.

I don’t know.

My singleness is becoming an issue again.

I had this great revalation over the summer that I didn’t have to have somone to be happy. And I actually believed it. I did. I was laying there in bed not wishing for somone to be next to me, and I was happy with where I was.

But I think that that hasn’t changed, but its changed from needing to have somone to wanting to have somone.

It’s strange.

I’m really not feeling doing anything anymore.

Like seriously, I have been struck with the largest want of being lazy that I ever have.

I need to do a lot of homework already tonight. I also need to use a text book that is in the library to take a quiz that I need to take. Whatevs.

Frick. I also need to buy a new student ID to check out that book.

That’s way lame.

WAY LAME.

I just spent 35.00 on 4 text books, but they aren’t supposed to show up till after next week. That doesn’t help me much. Here’s to hoping they show up soon. But still that’s a deal for 4 textbooks.

whatevs.

Anyway, I have school in like an hour. From 12 to 2. and i’m going to try to go and get my student Id and my parking pass.

Sigh. Yay for school.

I’m almost out of money already.

Who knew? At least my birthday is coming up.

If I cried myself to sleep in pain, would you judge me?

Oh my goodlordallmighty.

I’m pretty sure there is itching powder on my brain.

It’s causing my eyes to water and squint shut. I could hardly drive home tonight.

The light hurts my eyes.

Maybe I have the flu. again.

For the third time this year.

It makes sense with all this school nonsense going on.

IN other news,

I’m staying at CSUMB for the time being. I think that I’m just going to finish my degree.

Then maybe transfer to SFSU or Humboldt or something. Who knows, maybe I’ll go to South Africa.

Who knows.

Oh my gosh my brain hurts.

I just want to close my eyes and never wake up till this stupid itch goes away.

sheknowsdrama:

i’m scared.


I seriously hate christians in these situations.

What do Christians say to me? “Trust God.” “Things will work out” “Something will end up happening…you won’t be homeless long.”

What do the atheists say? “Oh dude, i know i’m a creepy old man but you can totally crash on my couch”



Do Christians realize how effed up they are being????? This is not how the church should be. This is why I’m planning on selling my bed to get one of these

http://www.broadwarehouse.com/images/220K%20Futon%20Bunk.jpg

because i’m not going to let my friends ever worry if they end up in my situation. because i want to be the kind of person that gives people refuge when they can’t handle their house anymore. because i want to love like God says to love…not like christians say.

i’m tired of christianity.

Honestly? There are plenty of atheists that would tell you no too. Were human. We try our best.

I’m sorry. The situation you’re in sucks. If I had a couch that belonged to me, you would be more than welcome to crash on it.

sheknowsdrama:

fishkeeper:

sheknowsdrama:

bear.

you haven’t posted as much about whats really on your mind since you got back.

or since i saw you.

i miss it.

:(

It’s because I really have nothing to say but that I don’t like my school and i want to transfer, sort of.

I do like my school a bit.

But not a lot. and I think there is a lot of opportunity at other schools.

So yeah.

How was today?

Was it okay??

Well…I guess I shouldn’t say that I miss it if the reason you’re not posting is because you’re doing better with things. I guess that would be pretty selfish of me…

Okay. I’m done being selfish.

Have I told you I have 20 followers now??? haha. It’s sort of funny. :)

Well geez. You should start re-blogging me more often so I can jump on this bandwaggon : ).

I had no school today. I did see moosie.

She says hiiii.

sheknowsdrama:

bear.

you haven’t posted as much about whats really on your mind since you got back.

or since i saw you.

i miss it.

:(

It’s because I really have nothing to say but that I don’t like my school and i want to transfer, sort of.

I do like my school a bit.

But not a lot. and I think there is a lot of opportunity at other schools.

So yeah.

Here we go again. Round and round… where I stop… no one knows. Yay for early morning inspiration.

I start school in approximately 6 hours.

I have no desire to be at CSUMB anymore. I really just want to transfer to SFSU, or maybe out of state. Real reason… well I have no one that I can hang out with out here anymore.

Is that my fault? Yeah. Probably.

I’m a loner and like to Isolate myself. I don’t know why.

I feel like I have a hard time making friends at my school because I’m not there enough. I love the friends I have there, don’t get me wrong, but it’s just tough some times because I drive so much. I have no time to make connections. It sucks.

I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place.

And it’s rediculous.

I’m not ready for life yet.

Seriously.

Not yet.

I have 2 days till school starts.

Sad day.